I just want to go to sleep and never have to get out of bed ever again.

• I'm hella nervous about taking the SAT tomorrow. Why? I'm not so sure. I'll probably end up taking it at least two more times. But I am freaking out, because that's what I do best.
• School is getting to be a bitch again. I have so much to do. So much is going on. I'm going to melt into a little puddle of stress before it's all over with.
• I'm on four different meds right now for bronchitis and mneumonia. All I want to do is sleep.
• I don't think I've touched a softball in 2 weeks.
• I'm getting bad vibes from him. It really scares me. I'm terrified of being let down again. I can't handle that right now - or at all anymore. But I'm too nervous to speak up and ask because I'll probably make things worse. I'm trying so hard and I'm not getting that back and I DON'T know what to do.
• I miss the way things used to be.
• Girls get on my nerves. I'm paranoid.
• I barely eat anymore.
• I need volunteer hours, but I have no time to get them.
• Our show is two weeks away.
• I honestly feel like I'm about to yank my hair out.
• I work too much on the weekends.
• I need reassuring that he still feels the same way, or that i should stop trying. I need to know what I'm going to get on the SAT. I need to get out of the 11th grade before I go insane. I need to not be sick anymore. I need to stop working and have time to myself.
• I feel like a selfish, stupid, bitchy person because my problems are no where near as bad as some people I know. I really don't have that much respect for myself anymore.