Hmm.

This is the third time I've tried to start one of these. Hopefully I'll be able to keep it going, this time.



I'm exhausted. Mentally, physically, emotionally - you name it.



1. School is overwhelming. Two AP classes, a Fast Foward class, and chorus are going to run me into the ground. I honestly probably won't get into any of the schools I'm looking at because my grades this semester are going to SUCK. I'm beginning to realize that i know NOTHING, i can't write like i thought i could, and i'm not good enough at anything to go into any fields that im interested in.

2. Softball is stressful. Not that we're practicing everyday or our actual season has even started, but moving me to second base or keeping me at first and Amanda behind the plate might mean the difference between a Conference title and third place. Again.

3. Work sucks. I miss Leonard. I hope he's enjoying Alabama.

4. Boys ruin my life. But nothing more is expected from them. End of story.

5. My great aunt is going insane. Apparently she had a stroke and can't remember anything, not to mention she's falling more and she's almost 90. I dunno. Maybe it's selfish but I dont want to have to see her that way.



I hate complaining, and I'm definitely aware that I dont have it bad at all. But venting helps, and I'd rather vent on here than burden someone.

I need a better self-esteem, i think. I think too much, overanalyze EVERYTHING, and put too much pressure on myself (I'm not the only one though. My parents are guilty of it, too).



Oh well.

I'm going to practice.
Much love.